Shout Out

I'LL BACK LOL.

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 12:18:13 GMT

I'm back !

not using blogdrive anymore ,
blogspot is the trend , no .

CLICKY !

see you in blogspot .

XOXO

love,
Carmen Lim Kah Mun

BRB

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 14:49:03 GMT

I think I give up on blogdrive already .
Photobucket and Flickr sucks .

Gimme some time and I'll brb . <3

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and .

I GIVE UP ON YOU !

I want you to be the first to know but you're not interested.

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 20:13:54 GMT

Hello : )

Out with XuehQi and Suetteng on tuesday ,
will do a post for it asap when I have a mood to .
I didn't really study , I'm lazy and I hate sejarah.

I'm gonna burn your eyes with my camwhore pictures.
Some pictures are really long ago and I didn't post up.
Was really lazy and so I'm posting everything up.
Yes , some with specs .

Fine -.-
You are allow to click the cross on the right .

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer .
Do you know you're unlike any other ?
You'll always be my thunder and I said
your eyes are the brightest of all colours .
I dont wanna ever love another .
You'll always be my thunder so bring on the rain ,
bring on the thunder .

You tried to be kind and acted strong like a supergirl so you made up decisions in a short period .End up, you find yourself just a fool because you hurt yourself .You cared for others but do you think they care for you ?Please , be selfish once to protect yourself

.She stand up on her own ,she finally smiled from the bottom of her heart.
She learn fast , she recover fast and she didn't bother bout' the scars .
She trying to forget about it , She said she wanted to move on.
She thought she have move on but when she hear bout them ,
her heart start to bleed again then she realize she was just lying to herself
since the day she stop crying then she found that
she stopped crying because there's no more tears for it
so she is forced to smile everyday to make herself feel better .

She wanted to tell but someone who should concern is not interested
so she swallowed back every word she wanted to say .
She's angry and disappointed but who cares ?

She take up every scolding , blames for you because she's stupid.
She don't want to break down anymore because she's tired of it .
Nomore crying under blankets , in the toilet at late night.
She don't know what she need because she's too pathetic.

She's not "her" and she can never become "her".
They're too different peson and if you makes them up, you'll regret
because someone cannot change to another person that you want it to be.
Before that , turn away . Just before it's too late .

Snow White. Cinderella. All about wanting a guy, being saved by the guy.
Today it's Little Mermaid, Aladdin, Pocahontas. All about getting a guy.
Cinderella walked on broken glass.Sleeping beauty let a whole lifetime pass.
Belle fell in love with a hideous beast.Pocahontas risked her life for a feast.
Jasmine could have had anyone,but instead chose a poor man,& Ariel walked on land.
So basically we're screwed up because of Disney.

Love are like glass.
When it break , you tried so hard to put them back together .
You successfully to put it back together , but it break again .
You hurt youself , it bleeds .
Sometimes is better to leave them alone than putting it back together.
At least , you can prevent from hurting yourself.

Love is the most beautiful of dreams , and the worst nightmare
-William Shakespeare-

When it hurts to look back and you're too scared to look ahead ,
look beside you , your best friend will always be there .
They forgive everything you have done wrong, they tried to cheer you up.
They can't make things get better but they can be your listener .

There's some time you need to be alone and think , what's going on to the world and come back with a smile.It's okay when it's fake because noone will take notice bout it .
Everyone is too busy to care

thankyou for everything , everything that you've done for me .
What is done is done but now , I'm still worry .
Too many heartbreak seission I've been through and I still dare not open up.
Give me some confidence , a little bit is enough for me .
Just don't get me mad is enough , actually .
You spoiled me and now I'm turning to be greedy , don't blame me.
If you hate it , push me down again . Yes, again .
I think , I'm still holding on and I need to wake up .
Wake me up before it's too late and now I'm scared .
I asked for too much till you couldnt give anymore .
I wonder if you know when i'm crying . Just wondering .

And , I should be happy .
Apparently , I'm not but I am trying to be happy.
I feel guilty but I'm not saving anything anymore .
Let me be selfish , for once .

Trust me , it'll be okay .

I won't give up on you like you give up on me .
You'll be back soon and we love you so so much.
Don't say I'm not sorry . I do feel sorry .
I'm sorry .

Peace kay ?

: (

xo.

Don't give up .

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 20:22:52 GMT

I have been looking through back pictures in facebook , friendster and etc etc
and also , I've read back my previous blog post especially last year's one.
Last year was fun although there're arguments and misunderstandings
but then my girls and I do settle it together and then gave a hug to each other.
After that , we forget bout everything and then go crazy together again. haha.
Wow , I didn't realize that we have been through so many things together.

Calvin Chen Yi Ru says , "Friendship is the ship that never sink" .

I repeated this for like 5736737368535353 times infront of all of you proudly.
Not because it's from Calvin , it's also very meaningful .
Don't you think so ?

In these years , we argued for like so many times .
But we managed to talk about it and then we forgive each other
for our own mistakes and promise to not do it again.
All of us have very bad temper and when we get angry,
we do shout at each other straight in the face everytime.
None of us do hate this way because it's the only way
to let our feelings out and it makes us all feel so so much better.
But why now , what we do is ignoring each other .
Not replying each other's messages and msn .
We do not pick up each other's call anymore .

Why is this even happening ?

We do get angry at each other for things but we never treated
each other like that before and girls, it's not the way .
Maybe we do not have guts to say out how we feel
but then , ignoring each other and treating each other badly .
Did any of us get anything we want ? No .
So why are we doing this to each other ?

We have different circles of friends and everything
but still , we hang out like twice a month or something
just to talk and complain about each other's life
and I know we do enjoy the times bitching bout people
one of us didn't like and have a great laugh in those restaurants
till everyone stares at us .

Then, ZhiWei and I will force the other two in pictures .
They don't want to take pictures but still they took it .
Why ? Because we didn't want to disappoint each other .

We always try to fulfill things that one of us ever wanted
because we don't want to disappoint each other .
We sometimes never tell out each other's mistake
because we don't want to hurt each other's feelings.
We laughed at each other sometimes when we're in trouble
but after that , we sort things out together and always together.
We hang out each other in school talking bout random topics
then we go around laughing at people for no reason.
We go to malls and piss the salesgirl off just for fun
after that we just walk off like that like some bitches.
Those memories , remember ?

We have ups and downs in life .
We can share the ups together and go through the downs together.

Why can't we just forgive each other like old times ?
Why must we ignore each other for little problems .
And Why must we act like we're strangers infront of the public?
We don't even look at each other , at all
as if we don't know each other just for some ridiculous problems?
Is it the right way to settle things ?

Girls , you can blame it on me and I won't say a word .
I have ruin all this and I'm trying my best to solve it
but none of you are trying to listen to me , at all
and straight you think I'm the one who started all this .
Please , think back everything before any of you hate me.
We are best friends and I'm sure that all of you know me well.
Do you think I'm a person like that ?

If you do so means I fail as a best friends .
Haha no , I'm not even a friend of yours
and then, I never tried hard enough to make you trust me.
But still , I never did betrayed anyone of you before .
Maybe you think I did but I know I didn't .

Are we going to ignore each other till the end of the year or maybe, forever?
And act like we don't know each other then walk pass by each other
like some stranger and when we're down , we leave each other alone
and never asked what happen and cheer each other up again .
So , are we gonna stop complaining to each other and laugh at random things?
Then, nomore shoutings and loud sessions in the mall anymore?
Do you all want it to be like this ?

Last time , none of us will treat each other like this and I can say it with full of confidence
but now , Idk anymore.I don't even know that when are we gonna talk to each other.

I feel so upset about this but Idk what to say .
Why can't all of you listen to my explanation and my thoughts
before making up any conclusion that you all think is right.
It's not your fault and not mine either .

I'm sorry , girls .
I'm really really sorry about everything .

I'm sorry if I did something that hurts you and I didn't do in on purpose.
I'm sorry if I've made you not to trust me anymore .
I'm sorry if I've disappoint anyone of you .
and, I'm sorry if I fail as a friend , best friend .

It's not about the problems that we are facing now .
It's about how much we trust each other as a friend.
I told people that our friendship is really strong
and noone will break us apart nomatter how big the matter is
but now , I'm not sure anymore .

Sometimes I get really angry when I see all of you acted like nothing happen
and then we start ignoring each other and I wonder how can you all do this.
You all can smile and laugh like nothing happened
and then , I'm over here worrying bout this matter .
Do you all even care about this argument?
When I bring up this matter and tried to talk bout it ,
none of you want to listen and it gets on my nerves .
I really do care , alot bout this.

Memories?

We do have hanging out session on fridays .
We go out from school and have lunch outside .
That's last year.

Perhaps all of you already give up on me .
I just want to know what I did wrong from the beginning .
Why don't you all tell me in my face instead of telling others ?

Friends are really important to everyone of us .
No doubt .

Why can't we just talk about this at least once and listen to each other .
Just for once to save our friendship . I don't want a full stop between us.
It's so hard to find someone that we click well with .
Don't you think it's really stupid to throw your friends away for small matter?
I think it is because friendship is number one for me.
How about all of you ?

Think , girls .

Please think again for everything .
I can take the blame , I don't mind infact I'm used to it already.
Do you want everything to become memories , just memories.
Do you all want everything to stop right here ?

I hope I can change your minds ,I really hope.
I have tried to save this already and now , it's up to all of you.
This is all I can do , to remind all of you how strong our friendship was.
If it breaks , this proves that we all didn't put enough effort in this.
But , I still trust that it will still go on so please , please make it go on.

Once again ,
I'm sorry and please tell me what did I do wrong .

I dont want a full stop in friendships .
How bout you ?

Calvin , hope that you're right .
Friendship is the ship that never sink.

:(

Because they said , I'm not worth it .

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 16:16:56 GMT

Hello , miss me ?

Have been skipping alot of updates .
I didn't have the mood to update tho , was pmsing .

I hate to pms . I should say which girl doesnt?
I get so annoyed easily and sometimes I feel like yelling at someone
or maybe throwing things but I don't want to pick it up -.-
I get moody and angry and irritated . Grr , I just hate that feeling.
Anyhow , it's over already ^^

School is fine , I guess ?
I don't like school now because i'm tired of school.
School is plain boring , everyone seems to be having their own thing to do
but I'm like the only one alone , it's hard to explain anyhow.

Trials is around the corner , straight after the holiday -.-
Really need to study , I don't want to fail pmr .
My parents will kill me if I do .

Two classes closed down due to H1N1 again .
One of them went to MTV WorldStage or is it two?
Forced to put the mask on to prevent it and I can't breathe with it.
It's like so hot inside , if you get what I mean
and I was like talking to Donniena and Fishie , I can barely hear them
or maybe I'm deaf -.-

I feel so tired now , I am really really tired and I need a break .

Once you start to keep things to yourself , slowly it'll turn into a habit .
Why keep things to yourself ? Why not tell it out ?
Because sometimes when we didn't say out the truth , things would turn better.
It's just hard to keep everything all to yourself , right ?
When someone have been betrayed too many times, they'll be afraid
and didn't tell you anything that you should know because they don't trust anyone
or maybe someone thinks that it's okay , he/she can handle it .
So don't blame them for not telling the truth .

Highschool life is so dramatic and everyone will get into one sooner or later.
If we're looking at people in all these, we'll probably laugh about it
but when you're in it , you can't even smile at all !

What goes around comes around .

Nomore dramas , please .

=(

I looked up at the sky then I smiled because I saw your reflection up there .

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 13:28:05 GMT

You are often loved because of your outgoing and fun personality, and you like to give hugs and flirt, but underneath of it all you are lacking heart. You find it hard to love others through all the walls you've built around your heart from being hurt so much throughout life, but you want to love, you desperately want that fun, romance that you see in others, but you don't know if you can have it in your current circumstances. You want stability, but at the same time you need change. You go from one extreme to another and often feel overwhelmed when you can't figure out something. You think about your life often and how you can improve your character. You find it hard to settle, but you really want to. You just feel like you need to find that balance, that heart that you've been missing for so long. You need to love through the pain, but it's so hard. But the walls need to crumble for you to truly be YOU..

It's sunday already and back to school tmr after two weeks of "holidays" ?
I did quarantine myself .I never step out of the house for like a week already.
Since the last friday I went out with Cyn , I never go out anymore.
I didnt want to follow people out also, I felt so lazy and I didn't study,at all.
I have too many things to deal with , just too many .
Honestly , this 2weeks was really bad as in like really really bad.
Hopefully yours is awesome unlike mine =.=

Ytd I was supposed to spend my whole day with Suetteng at my place.
Yes, was supposed . ish =/

The plan didn't work out because I need to go to the beach with family.
Port Dickson. And it's still dirty , I guess .
Still , there're people littering around the places.
What can you expect ? it's Malaysia aite -.-

Slept late the day before and was forced to wake up at 10am.
I woke up then I went back to sleep to 11am , heee .
Headed off to Bangsar for the roadside nasi lemak .
It was really really cheap kay and it was delicious, i think.
anyhow, I like the ice lemon tea ! xD

After that we start our journey to Port Dickson and I didn't know that it's so far.
It's like one hour plus plus or maybe more to the destination.
So in the car , I *hahahahhahahha* camwhore again.

:)

Lala?

Yes , it's lala.

Reached there around 3 something and the weather was so terrible.
It's like so hot and I keep sweating plus I need to walk under the sun
because I want to walk to every shop they have over there that sell
all the souvenirs and stuff .I'm so smart because I didn't put on sunblock -.-
I didn't get anything from those shops , it's not the price for everything.
Even the snacks are like .. more expensive than 7eleven's .

They sell alot of floats , different kinds of shapes and colours .
Some of them are like so cute and the price are even "cuter" .
There are shops that sell swimsuits and clothes as in like tshirts , skirts?
I wonder why they don't sell shades , was hunting for it tho .
I lost my shades .I mean, Idk where I put and I'm lazy to find them around my house.

Went to the stall over there for shade .
Didn't want to go into the water with the terrible sun shining on us.
Ate cendol :D

Candid .

Sorry laaa TT couldnt help it .

After awhile , find a place to put our stuff and the kids changed .
They were so excited because they never feel the sand before
and they keep asking where's the sharks and whales ?
You can't even find a fish in PortDickson la kay -.-
How to think bout sharks and whales ?

Put on sunblock then . I put on too much until I feel so oily and sticky.
I hate it but still put on because I don't wanna turn dark .
It's not like I'm very fair right ?

Took pictures at the beach .

LOL.

Venice and her float ?

Oi , dont press the cross button on the right ,

Yes , happy kids =D

Why can't we just, just be like this
Cause it's you that I need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way
I feel when I'm with you, no one will ever do
-Nobody by Wonder Girls.-

retarded -.-

I know one day you will find out

what I've did for you .

just for you .

<3

Actually I didnt want to go into the water but I changed my mind
so yeah , changed to jersey and there it goes .

the sun was too bright .

I have no idea what they're doing , they're like digging holes everywhere
to look for shells or something .Didnt join them tho because I dont have any equipments.
They took the fork-like thing and the spoon-like thing .
Sorry lah TT idk what is it called kay . Anyhow, back to the point.
So they took those thing to dig the holes . Shit, I forgot what I wanna say already -.-
We tried to build sand castle but we fail so badly .
The sand was too wet and it keep cracking then it's tumbled down.
We got so fed up of it and so we forget bout building sand castles.

After awhile we went into the sea and it's warm inside.
Couldn't go any deeper because grandma was staring at us all along.
If we go deeper , she'll seriously shout from that spot to us
and we don't want to embrass ourselves .

Jetski is 80bucks for 20minutes , wtf .
It's so bloody expensive kay , it's not worth it at all.
Was planning to ride on one but after we heard the price, we forget bout it.
Still rmb that form one we went pangkor and it's only 60bucks for 20minutes.
In Pangkor , many of us really like to ride on it .
Everytime those ppl ask us to come back , we go even further
and then act like we didnt hear and see them . LOL .
So then we have extra ten minutes or even longer :D
Sigh , memories .

More pictures :D

I see you LOL .

heh : )

i kinda like this picture :D

Vanilla ice cream :D

Sisters found a crab and none of them dare to go over to take it and put inside the bucket.
Then the wave came and we thought the crab will be gone but then , it's not.
We stared at the crab for like a few minutes or maybe more, lol
and trying to figure it out how to put it into the bucket.
There's this indian man help us to catch it and put inside the bucket.
The kids was so jakunted because they never see a crab alive before .
Show you the picture later, I couldn't find it .

Went to the toilet to clean up and there's no water. wtf !
There's only a pipe for all of us , imagine how pathetic is that.
I lined up but then they cut my line and I do not dare to say anything
because there's two aunties arguing over the pipe .
They settled it after awhile like finally then it's my turn :D

Watched sunset and the pack the things and everything , there we go.
Everyone slept in the car except for the driver , lol.
Headed to Kajang for satay and everything , tht's our dinner.

Went through pictures in the car and my aunty found a picture
one of my friend sucking the tube , you know when you shisha .
That kind of tube. Aunty was like OH.SMOKING .
Then the whole car was like staring at me and I like,
WHAT SMOKING?! then I faster show her the pictures we took at the beach.
After that, everyone forget bout it already. pheww~~

My parents are not that open yet .
They'll kill me if they know I shisha , I think .
Need to delete pictures if not GG .

Start taking random pictures in the car , then start camwhoring again :D
Just a few .

Okay , a bad starting -.-

Venice .

He and his cars .

random .

ni shuo de hua zhong na me hao ting , ni ai bu ai wo bu neng que ding,
huo xu ni ba ta dang you xi, wo que ai de tai yong li .
-Hao Ting-

cai zhi dao you xie gan shou wo he ta shei tou bu neng shuo chu kou,
wo men zi jian ying chang le shen me , qu le wo zhi zi mei ren dong,
ke shi ni , ni zhen me shuo , ni zhi dao hou shi bu shi chong chi jiu chi bi kai wo.
-Yi Ran Shi Peng You-

camwhore kao xD

NOOB FACE ALERT ! XD

and ,

I found the picture of the crab LOL.

Yes , we brought it home and hopefully it will still be alive .

Reached home around ten. Trying to settle some things but failed again.
Went online and transferred some pictures .
Slept around 5am , I think .

They wake me up at 12 just to eat Bak Kut Teh -.-
I was planning to sleep till 3 , you know .argh.
After that , went to Mydin for grocery shopping .
Life is boring .

Friends said,
my life is complicated and they asked how could I survive in this kind of life.
Then I smiled and said ,
because I have no choice and I can't do anything .

I'm done .
See you in school tmr .

loves xo.

If time machine exist .

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 17:16:58 GMT

Hi .

My phone's screen cannot display anything so don't text me,
you can still call me so yeah . Lazy to send it to repair tho.

Pictures of the kids & I .

Moo Moo head . wtf.

There's some things shouldn't be .

Eyebags too big so yeah O.O

-.-'

he wanted to high five with me xD

SO CUTE XD

:)

AND

I LOVE ZHIWEI <3<3<3

You better cheer up , bitch because I'm updating about you . Not because you ask me to , it's because I miss you too like how you miss me . You should come back to SriKL and visit us because after that, you'll change your mind but to come back. Was pissed at you because you told me that you need to change school last minute, you know but anyhow , I'm bitchier that you that's why I forgive you -.-' okay sorry for being lame but yeah, I still enjoy arguing with you and I know we enjoy shouting at each other in malls and school. Although everyone was like giving us that stare, we still do it. We need to meet up soon or you should just surprise me by visiting school without telling anyone *hint hint* . And, you better be there whenever I need you and I'll always be there for you . I don't mind crying and throwing things with you when you break down because Carmen rocks , lol and okay fine, you too .

Just shut people's mouth out using Zhiwei's way when they annoy you like how you did to me which is shouting at me at the corridor and made everyone stare at me as if I'm some retarded person . I still remember we shouted to each other across the shop and the salesgirl was staring cock at us then we laugh and it pisses her off then when we wanna camwhore , she stopped us. wtf. Since you left for you new school , I have lost a camwhore buddy in class because noone wants to cooperate with me TT so my blog is so dead boring because I have no pictures and it's gonna be dead soon.I still have the BIG birthday card you gave me and I hope you still keep the storybook I made for you, or else.. I'll shout at you at the corridor.Er, I mean the main entrance of the mall to embrass you after that,I'll laugh at you because everyone is staring at you with the weird look . LOL.

The first time we redbox together , you stood on the sofa and pulled me along then the waiter came in and stared at us , we stunned then smile shyly to him.You shouted with the mic until everyone got angry because your voice is very sharp but now, I'm use to it already.
You should stop asking me stupid question like , "Carmen,Are you scared of zebras?" and it's so stupid.You're so random , you know but we like the way you be , if it's at the correct time. We took too many pictures. We take pictures whenever we are and we like it. It's fun, no? Oi, better say YES .

You better update me with your life , at least everyweek. I don't mind talking to you on the phone for hours during the midnight till we sleep. I still remember we bought couple sit for fun just to watch beverly hills chihuahua and then everyone was staring at us.Still remember I ate yogur berry then I dropped the spoon at the main entrance of Jusco that it embrass us so much till we need to run away and I still rememeber the guard was like shaking his head and why I only have this kind of memories with you , all the shouting and embrassing ones.Oh, you better love me because I planned your birthday celebration for you this year and I know you love me. No , not being perasan this time and I think I can read your mind.
See how much I love you because I wrote you a composition , you better write me a love letter so that I can show off to everyone that I've a friend that wrote me love letter , wtf .We need to keep in touch often .

And bitch , I miss you soooooooooo much .
love you. xo.

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FUCK.

Something shitty just happened , seriously.
Life sucks .

1 . My phone's screen cannot display anything.
2 . I received a phone call just now .
3 . And, I hate the feeling of being accused .
4 . Noone wants to listen to me .
5 . Then, Finally someone wants to listen to and I'm trying to let everything out.
6 . Great, I said something wrong and I don't know .
7 . I piss someone off already and sorry seems to be ignored.
8 . I hate myself for not thinking before I talk , ish.
9 . Someone pm me again and why always this time .
10 .10.30-11.30pm everynight always have very nice drama going on.
11 . I feel like crying right now !
12 . I just found out that many people hates me.
13 . I run out of mentos already !
14 . I must apologize sincerely to my friend tomorrow.
15 . I should get some sleep now and think what to do.
16 . Before that , I wanna ask whether 3alpha is moving back to 3alpha or still in 4rho.
17 . I'm going to PortDickson tmr -.- and I can't meet AUNTY BEH UP T_______T
18 . I feel so miserable right now and I should think when I'm at the beach.
19 . I'm afraid of something TT
20 . This update is stupid but you're reading it :)
21 . That kinda makes me feel abit better.
22 . Okay , I think I better go sleep .
23 . Don't miss me .
24 . I'm so annoying , ohmygod.
25 . OI , DON'T HATE ME .
26 . I need to fake a smile right now .
27 . Sorry .
28 . Don't hate me .
29 . I love Calvin Chen Yi Ru & Fahrenheit <3
30 . =D

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait?
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you lost your way

And what if my chances were already gone?
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries!
There are no boundaries!

I fought to the limit to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets?
Don't know where the future's headed
But nothing's gonna bring me down

I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I've risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why!

So hear I am still holding on!

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe

Yeah! There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries!

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries!
There are no boundaries!
There are no boundaries

Adam Lambert's version is better , still better.
No boundaries.

:(

I hope you won't find out forever .

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 17:52:21 GMT

I woke up at 5pm today -_______________-
And I sleep around 3am ytd , okay .
I have no idea why I can sleep for so long.
Yes , I'm a pig and I'm not denying that . :D

I'll try to sleep early tonight .
Wait ! it's already 11pm .

Can't deny that I'm updating this because I feel bored.
I have so much to say or tell , I'm not lying
but I can't just throw out everything here.
It's so not right for me to do that , haha .
Pity my close friends , the ones who I always complained to.

Highschool's dramas is scary but it'll be a good memory right?
Trying to be positive and it makes me feel better , alot better.

Sometimes people just expect too much and putting their hopes high
and then they thought holding on everything with their high self-confidence,
everything will go on as they wish but if it doesn't turn out right
or what they want it to be , they put the blame on others who did nothing, at all.
And, the ridiculous thing is the people who get blamed for nothing felt guilty.
What's the fucking wrong with the world ?!

It's nothing wrong to complain , break down and do things that make you feel better
but please remember , the world doesn't go as you wish everytime
and not because you have the good starting or anything , you can control everything.
So what if it doesn't go as you wish . So what if it tears you apart ?
So what if you cried whole night long for something you wanted so much ?
And so what about telling others how fucking sad or hurt you are ?
Will things turn out better or you'll feel happier ?

Everyone have to go through the same thing in life . Yes , everyone .
You feel hurt so you cry then tell others people made your life so miserable
and you're tons and tons luckier than others who have been through
something worst than you, million time worst than you .
Everyone have feelings , nomatter how much someone act like they don't give a fucking damn.

Everyone gets hurts at times and of course, many people couldn't take it
so they choose to avoid , run away and not facing it then let it be.
They're so naive that they thought it'll be fine after awhile
and when they realize it's too late for them to do anything , they regret.
Of course everyone have a chance and then they screwed it up again.
Then go tell other people , it's not their fault then again, blame others.
Don't you think it's ridiculous , no ?

Couldn't blame anyone in everything , right ?
Maybe that person is wrong , or maybe they didn't do anything at all
but you just feel better blaming it on others so that you can runaway from blames.
It's so selfish but not that person's fault because that person just want to protect themselves.
But when you're over protective of yourself , you'll hurt someone else .
Just, think of someone else before you say or do anything .
If that's what you want to say or do without caring bout other's feelings
then do it and then you'll realize that you did wrongly and it shouldn't be .

Sigh , don't worry too much , it'll be okay :D
Camwhore . xD

You know what ?

I LOVE
CYNTHIA QUAH YAN ZHUANG <3

Babe , this post is for you .
I definitely know how you feel and yes, it's very heartbreaking .You can cry out all you want whenever you want to
but remember , there's more things for you to do other than thinking of it.I know it's hard for you , I really do and I wish I could be there for you everytime but yeah, I couldn't make it and please remember ,I'll always be there.Not only me kay. Look around , Suetteng and XuehQi is there too right.We'll protect you from everything , We love you and definitely more than he does.I won't ask you to be strong and I won't ask you not to cry
because I know that you couldn't make it now .
Babe , please always remember we are here for you, everytime alright .
Time will bring it go , nomatter how hurt you felt .
We love you, babe . Cheer Up :D

Sorry la . SS picture .

I used to be love drunk but now I'm hungover .
Love is forever ,forever is over .
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight so just call me crazy .
Say hello then goodbye .
There's just one thing that would make me say
I used to be love drunk but now I'm hungover
Love is forever but now it's over .
-Boys Like Girls : Love Drunk-

People say facing things alone will make you stronger
but why am I becoming weaker and weaker each day ?
Perhaps one day , someone will protect me .
Doubt it'll happen . lol .

Sorry , I'm signing off now .

xo.

I caught myself my smiling today , because I was thinking of you .

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 13:12:30 GMT

Stripes :D
before my hair cut , lol.

Life is getting boring and yes , I have nothing to do everyday.
I will try to study so don't gimme that look.
It's like the whole August is off , thanks to H1N1.
And , I kinda miss school already :D

I woke up around 2.30pm today and went I go down ,
people gave me a kind of stare which is freaking me out.
They were like asking me why so early -.-
because normally I wake up at 3pm or even later .
WOI , you can't blame me for that . It's a holiday, right?

WHY AM I GROUNDED ?!?!?!?!
T_____________________________T

I have like a week to go and I'm grounded.
I was looking forward to my tuition and now, it's canceled.
Ish , what a life . So boring , omg.

I hate MSN because I keep dcing .
Imagine you are chatting with your friend bout something
very kanjiong then suddenly ,
"you appear to be offline,please sign in ...."
It's so pissing off , you know ! *angry face*

Aiyo , people . Please stay up late and chat with me online la.
I sleep around 3 or 4am everynight , chat with me chat with me.
Text me , Msn me . Talk to me . I don't wanna be alone TT
Yes , I'm desperate so talk to me . WHAHAHAH .

Have alot of camwhore pictures but it's all in my camera.
Will post it up the next post or something , haha .
Just to burn your eyes :D

Tagged by Cynthia and XuehQi :)

Tag One : My kind of Guy .

Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in Facebook to answer this. Then see what happens.

If you a guy - post this as "my kind of girl"
If your a girl - post it as "my kind of guy"

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
- Hmm , I think he's good looking can already :D

2. Smart?
- not really . at least smarter than me.

3. Preferred age?
- Age is just a number but it depends.

4. Preferred height?
- at least half head taller than me .

5. How about sense of humor?
- As long as it's not boring .

6. How about piercings?
- Why not ? I think it's damn yeng xD

7. Accepts you for who you are?
- OF COURSE LA !

8. Pink hair?
- I'll make my hair pink xD

9. Mushy or no?
- Must .

10. Thin or fat?
- depends.

11. Black, Brown, Yellow or White (skin color)?
- Can choose colour one meh . :D

12. Long hair or short hair?
- as long as he looks good in it.

13. Plastic or metal?
- MEANS WHAT ?

14. Smells good?
- of course of course.

15. Smoker?
- hopefully not .

16. Drinker?
- I'll drink with him .

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
- AW <3

18. Muscular?
- not until like wuchun la . scary .

19. Plays piano?
- hmmm , not really.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
- WA , ROCKER .

21. Plays violin?
- no .

22. Sings very well?
- okay okay la.

23. Vain?
- what's wrong with that ?

24. With glasses?
- change to contacts la . so mafan .

25. With braces?
- no.

26. Shy type?
- damn cute . I'll make him not shy then.

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
- half half .

28. Active or passive?
- both .

29. Tight or bomb?
- noone understands this la .

30. Singer or dancer?
- both .

31. Stunner?
- LOL .

32. Hiphop?
- dont want.

33. Earrings?
- yes :D

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
- ask him go die .

35. Dimples?
- OF COURSE LA . DAMN CUTE OMG OMG , like CAL <3

36. Bookworm?
- not a pure one .

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
- yes .

38. Playful?
- yes yes.

39. Flirt?
- with me only :D

40. Poem writer?
- yer , too dramtic.

41. Serious?
- Boys look damn yeng when they're serious .

42. Campus crush?
- ????

43. Painter?
- yer , no.

44. Religious?
- No no no.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
- not too over .

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
- hmmm . both can but not too over.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
- he can teach me. YAY ! save money.

48. Loyal or faithful?
- loyal AND faithful.

49. Good kisser?
- is it even important ?

50. Loves children??
- of course.

So now , let's go to tag two.
Steal from XuehQi's web .

Rules:

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan!
At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged.
You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u!=)

(To do this, go to �notes� under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your wedding plan, tag the people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. How old are you?
- 15

2. Are you single??
- yes.

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
- after 26 .

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
- single la.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
- Can I marry Calvin Chen Yi Ru , pleeaaaaaaaaaseeee . in my dreams also can . HAHAH

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & best man?
- dont know yet.

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
- BOTH .

8.Where do you want to go for honeymoon?
- depends on him .

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
- the more the better

10. Will that include your exes?
- think so .

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
- ten LOL . okay la . 5 .

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
- night .

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
- never think bout it tho .

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon, fork and knife?
- Fine dining .

15. Champagne or red wine?
- Both.

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
- Days after the wedding..

17. Money or household items?
- har?

18. How many kids would you like to have?
- 3! or 4?

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
- YES .

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
- Calvin's XD

tags are kinda fun or maybe it's just I'm boring .

I used to hate to do tags and now I kinda like it
because it's so boring~~ .

I'm signing off now .
Will update tmr , I guess .

I rewatch KO ONE again wtf , just for Cal <3

Fahrenheit is <3

loves.

I'm still here , waiting for you .

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 15:58:59 GMT

Finally I have a comp to use , although it's a bit retarded
but nevermind , better than nothing right so no complains :D
Cynthia have been bugging me for pictures and yes,
finally I installed the thingi and transferred it . LOL .

Went out with Cynthia lately and the same old place again .

Before anything ,

CLICK HERE !

Click it Click it . : D

Kimgary for lunch , talked and laughoutloud there
but this time I didn't make everyone staring at me tho.
Yes, some improvement .

People always complain that I'm loud and yes I am -.-

After that, headed to Tarbush .
Shisha :D damn long never shisha edi .
Apple flavored this time .
Mint is always out of stock . sigh.

SS , again :)

You should've said no .
-Taylor Swift-

I just come around to see whether you're happy .

Emo like Nemo . *inside joke*

SIGH , OUT OF CAPTIONS T_______T

Told Cyn bout life , complained like there's no tmr .
I talked to her online like everyday and I wonder if she find me boring.
She better don't if not I'll disturb her like..everyday. WAAHAHHA.
Still , she reads my mind . hmm.

I can't share what we talk bout with you .
It's kinda weird . :D

Pictures taken by Cyn .

retarded .

Shisha , a must take picture :D

Cynthia requested and I really look retarded -.-

The song in the car , I keep singing. Don't know why I do .

I just join it all only lar , ahahahahh .
More pictures .

Cyn <3

O.O randomness .

Favorite shot : )

After that , we went high . LOL.
Sometimes when the shisha thing is too strong ,
you'll feel a little dizzy and yeah , feel high.
The feeling is unexplainable but it's kinda fun tho.
Perhaps shisha is a drug O.O

We paid and left Tarbush , walk around aimlessly.
Then went to McD for I SCREAM , ice creams :)

Cyn : HAHAHAHAHAAH , yeah.
Me : *enjoying my Mcflurry Oreo* eh , Cyn. you know hor *!!* WHERE'S YOUR ICE CREAM?!?!?!
Cyn : Er , I finished it already.
Me : *!!* SO FAST?! OMG.
*then we burst out laughing*

She eat damn fast , O.O SCARY XD

Hang around after a little while then went home .
I'm glad that I did something that day .

Now , I need to plan what am I gonna do everyday until school reopen.
I should study for trials , LOL as if I'll do it la .
I wake up around 3 to 4pm everyday and half a day is gone.
Life is so boring and the worst thing is I'm grounded .
It's real this time T_______________________________T

Anyhow , I miss Cal so much then I spend the whole night to search bout him .
He updated his blog and YAY! I'm happy . ahahha :)
I still can't read some chinese words and yeah, I have to guess what it means.
His blog load really slowly and yes , I patiently wait for it to load.
For the sake of Calvin , wait for awhile la :D

Oh, I just read some story thing on epop magazine
and yeah, Calvin is in it but he's the bad guy.
WHY?! He so cute and adorable , so tall and got dimple sumore.
How could they write until he so mean , kill people .
If I find out who's the writer , I go after him or her .
Die also want her to correct the story back , ish.

Cal is loooooveeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3

And

Jiro's birthday is coming , august 24th :D

So Jiro's fans , have you all prepare all the birthday wishes ?
And Jiro is so damn hot is KO3anguo if you watched that drama .

His image in KO3anguo and he's damn hot la OMG OMG OMG. Look at the way he dress and his hair *melts* I kinda like Jiro <3

3 words.
OH
MY
GOD
!!

Yes , the hot body OMG .
It's like so damn sexy and his skin colour is dark .
They photoshop it alot . :D
But still, Jiro is irresistible <3<3<3

I'M STILL LOYAL TO CALVIN , OKAY .
don't gimme that loook..

Lastly .

XO.