The one in a million
I came to this world on June 9th.I am fifteen this year .I believe that pictures doesn't tell lies and they mark down every memory of life, that's why I love taking pictures.And Oh, it kills boredom too.
I love to sing out really loud and I don't really care about what strangers thinking about me.
I am very naughty , I can't deny.I don't like chocolates.I am afraid of thunders.Clowns and cockroaches , it freaks me out.I extremly love strawberries and kiwis.I like waterfalls and rainbows , they're just too beautiful.
I am bad tempered , everything gets worst when pms attack.
Sitting at the corner , trying to hide myself , biting my lower lips and give ugly face means that my mood is down .You can always cheer me up but finding a way too.I'm extra sensitive.I get piss over little things.
I like to complaint ,I love to talk.I am a busybody , I don't deny.
I don't care what people think I am.I don't accept any insultings and compliments .They are fake but we can't control , no?
My english isn't perfect , grammatical and spelling erros always happen.You can't blame me, I'm just too stupid.
I like cash as much as you do . Just like other girls, Shopping do make me happy.
I don't know how to put into words , what a person I am because sometimes I can't even understand myself.
Perhaps you can find out more who I am.
I love my family.I love my friends .Most of all, I love
Calvin Chen Yi Ru.
Remember that ,
I am Carmen Lim Kah Mun :)
The cutest heart stealer.
THE SUNSHINE BOY
Calvin Chen Yi Ru <3
FAHRENHEIT <3
Arron Yan Ya Lun represents Winter ; cold at 41 fahrenheit.
Chun Wuzun represents Autumn ; cool at 59 fahrenheit.
Calvin Chen Yi Ru represents spring ; warm at 77 fahrenheit.
Jiro Wang Dong Cheng represents summer ; hot at 95 fahrenheit.
The Lim Family :)
It can be describe by words , count by fingers , name it out it figure , it just can be feel in the heart because we have the same blood flowing through . They are love , I love them <3
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Thursday, August 27, 2009
I want you to be the first to know but you're not interested.
Hello : )
Out with XuehQi and Suetteng on tuesday ,
will do a post for it asap when I have a mood to .
I didn't really study , I'm lazy and I hate sejarah.
I'm gonna burn your eyes with my camwhore pictures.
Some pictures are really long ago and I didn't post up.
Was really lazy and so I'm posting everything up.
Yes , some with specs .
Fine -.-
You are allow to click the cross on the right .
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer .
Do you know you're unlike any other ?
You'll always be my thunder and I said
your eyes are the brightest of all colours .
I dont wanna ever love another .
You'll always be my thunder so bring on the rain ,
bring on the thunder .
You tried to be kind and acted strong like a supergirl so you made up decisions in a short period .End up, you find yourself just a fool because you hurt yourself .You cared for others but do you think they care for you ?Please , be selfish once to protect yourself
.She stand up on her own ,she finally smiled from the bottom of her heart.
She learn fast , she recover fast and she didn't bother bout' the scars .
She trying to forget about it , She said she wanted to move on.
She thought she have move on but when she hear bout them ,
her heart start to bleed again then she realize she was just lying to herself
since the day she stop crying then she found that
she stopped crying because there's no more tears for it
so she is forced to smile everyday to make herself feel better .
She wanted to tell but someone who should concern is not interested
so she swallowed back every word she wanted to say .
She's angry and disappointed but who cares ?
She take up every scolding , blames for you because she's stupid.
She don't want to break down anymore because she's tired of it .
Nomore crying under blankets , in the toilet at late night.
She don't know what she need because she's too pathetic.
She's not "her" and she can never become "her".
They're too different peson and if you makes them up, you'll regret
because someone cannot change to another person that you want it to be.
Before that , turn away . Just before it's too late .
Snow White. Cinderella. All about wanting a guy, being saved by the guy.
Today it's Little Mermaid, Aladdin, Pocahontas. All about getting a guy.
Cinderella walked on broken glass.Sleeping beauty let a whole lifetime pass.
Belle fell in love with a hideous beast.Pocahontas risked her life for a feast.
Jasmine could have had anyone,but instead chose a poor man,& Ariel walked on land.
So basically we're screwed up because of Disney.
 Love are like glass.
When it break , you tried so hard to put them back together .
You successfully to put it back together , but it break again .
You hurt youself , it bleeds .
Sometimes is better to leave them alone than putting it back together.
At least , you can prevent from hurting yourself.
Love is the most beautiful of dreams , and the worst nightmare
-William Shakespeare-
When it hurts to look back and you're too scared to look ahead ,
look beside you , your best friend will always be there .
They forgive everything you have done wrong, they tried to cheer you up.
They can't make things get better but they can be your listener .
There's some time you need to be alone and think , what's going on to the world and come back with a smile.It's okay when it's fake because noone will take notice bout it .
Everyone is too busy to care
thankyou for everything , everything that you've done for me .
What is done is done but now , I'm still worry .
Too many heartbreak seission I've been through and I still dare not open up.
Give me some confidence , a little bit is enough for me .
Just don't get me mad is enough , actually .
You spoiled me and now I'm turning to be greedy , don't blame me.
If you hate it , push me down again . Yes, again .
I think , I'm still holding on and I need to wake up .
Wake me up before it's too late and now I'm scared .
I asked for too much till you couldnt give anymore .
I wonder if you know when i'm crying . Just wondering .
And , I should be happy .
Apparently , I'm not but I am trying to be happy.
I feel guilty but I'm not saving anything anymore .
Let me be selfish , for once .
Trust me , it'll be okay .
I won't give up on you like you give up on me .
You'll be back soon and we love you so so much.
Don't say I'm not sorry . I do feel sorry .
I'm sorry .
Peace kay ?
: (
xo.
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Sunday, August 23, 2009
I have been looking through back pictures in facebook , friendster and etc etc
and also , I've read back my previous blog post especially last year's one.
Last year was fun although there're arguments and misunderstandings
but then my girls and I do settle it together and then gave a hug to each other.
After that , we forget bout everything and then go crazy together again. haha.
Wow , I didn't realize that we have been through so many things together.
Calvin Chen Yi Ru says , "Friendship is the ship that never sink" .
I repeated this for like 5736737368535353 times infront of all of you proudly.
Not because it's from Calvin , it's also very meaningful .
Don't you think so ?
In these years , we argued for like so many times .
But we managed to talk about it and then we forgive each other
for our own mistakes and promise to not do it again.
All of us have very bad temper and when we get angry,
we do shout at each other straight in the face everytime.
None of us do hate this way because it's the only way
to let our feelings out and it makes us all feel so so much better.
But why now , what we do is ignoring each other .
Not replying each other's messages and msn .
We do not pick up each other's call anymore .
Why is this even happening ?
We do get angry at each other for things but we never treated
each other like that before and girls, it's not the way .
Maybe we do not have guts to say out how we feel
but then , ignoring each other and treating each other badly .
Did any of us get anything we want ? No .
So why are we doing this to each other ?
We have different circles of friends and everything
but still , we hang out like twice a month or something
just to talk and complain about each other's life
and I know we do enjoy the times bitching bout people
one of us didn't like and have a great laugh in those restaurants
till everyone stares at us .
Then, ZhiWei and I will force the other two in pictures .
They don't want to take pictures but still they took it .
Why ? Because we didn't want to disappoint each other .
We always try to fulfill things that one of us ever wanted
because we don't want to disappoint each other .
We sometimes never tell out each other's mistake
because we don't want to hurt each other's feelings.
We laughed at each other sometimes when we're in trouble
but after that , we sort things out together and always together.
We hang out each other in school talking bout random topics
then we go around laughing at people for no reason.
We go to malls and piss the salesgirl off just for fun
after that we just walk off like that like some bitches.
Those memories , remember ?
We have ups and downs in life .
We can share the ups together and go through the downs together.
Why can't we just forgive each other like old times ?
Why must we ignore each other for little problems .
And Why must we act like we're strangers infront of the public?
We don't even look at each other , at all
as if we don't know each other just for some ridiculous problems?
Is it the right way to settle things ?
Girls , you can blame it on me and I won't say a word .
I have ruin all this and I'm trying my best to solve it
but none of you are trying to listen to me , at all
and straight you think I'm the one who started all this .
Please , think back everything before any of you hate me.
We are best friends and I'm sure that all of you know me well.
Do you think I'm a person like that ?
If you do so means I fail as a best friends .
Haha no , I'm not even a friend of yours
and then, I never tried hard enough to make you trust me.
But still , I never did betrayed anyone of you before .
Maybe you think I did but I know I didn't .
Are we going to ignore each other till the end of the year or maybe, forever?
And act like we don't know each other then walk pass by each other
like some stranger and when we're down , we leave each other alone
and never asked what happen and cheer each other up again .
So , are we gonna stop complaining to each other and laugh at random things?
Then, nomore shoutings and loud sessions in the mall anymore?
Do you all want it to be like this ?
Last time , none of us will treat each other like this and I can say it with full of confidence
but now , Idk anymore.I don't even know that when are we gonna talk to each other.
I feel so upset about this but Idk what to say .
Why can't all of you listen to my explanation and my thoughts
before making up any conclusion that you all think is right.
It's not your fault and not mine either .
I'm sorry , girls .
I'm really really sorry about everything .
I'm sorry if I did something that hurts you and I didn't do in on purpose.
I'm sorry if I've made you not to trust me anymore .
I'm sorry if I've disappoint anyone of you .
and, I'm sorry if I fail as a friend , best friend .
It's not about the problems that we are facing now .
It's about how much we trust each other as a friend.
I told people that our friendship is really strong
and noone will break us apart nomatter how big the matter is
but now , I'm not sure anymore .
Sometimes I get really angry when I see all of you acted like nothing happen
and then we start ignoring each other and I wonder how can you all do this.
You all can smile and laugh like nothing happened
and then , I'm over here worrying bout this matter .
Do you all even care about this argument?
When I bring up this matter and tried to talk bout it ,
none of you want to listen and it gets on my nerves .
I really do care , alot bout this.
Memories?
We do have hanging out session on fridays .
We go out from school and have lunch outside .
That's last year.
Perhaps all of you already give up on me .
I just want to know what I did wrong from the beginning .
Why don't you all tell me in my face instead of telling others ?
Friends are really important to everyone of us .
No doubt .
Why can't we just talk about this at least once and listen to each other .
Just for once to save our friendship . I don't want a full stop between us.
It's so hard to find someone that we click well with .
Don't you think it's really stupid to throw your friends away for small matter?
I think it is because friendship is number one for me.
How about all of you ?
Think , girls .
Please think again for everything .
I can take the blame , I don't mind infact I'm used to it already.
Do you want everything to become memories , just memories.
Do you all want everything to stop right here ?
I hope I can change your minds ,I really hope.
I have tried to save this already and now , it's up to all of you.
This is all I can do , to remind all of you how strong our friendship was.
If it breaks , this proves that we all didn't put enough effort in this.
But , I still trust that it will still go on so please , please make it go on.
Once again ,
I'm sorry and please tell me what did I do wrong .
I dont want a full stop in friendships .
How bout you ?
Calvin , hope that you're right .
Friendship is the ship that never sink.
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